I'm having a sudden change in my mood. I'm really saddened by the things circling in my mind.
I love my family. I really love each and every member of it. I'm really trying my best to make them feel it but sometimes, especially when I've done a not so good thing to them, it seems like I haven't done anything good to them. It's like I'm a bad person. I did my best my I guess my best wasn't good enough.
I really like him. Yeah, Chin it is. But I don't have the courage to say it to him face to face. The fondness I'm feeling for him gets stronger more and more each day. I hope someday I'll have the strength to say it to you Chin. It's really hard seeing you every day while hiding the happiness inside myself whenever our eyes met. If I'm just given the chance (a really rare one) to say to him how I feel, I think I'll not let it pass just like what I did with the previous opportunities that had came my way. I just need a perfect timing and perfect emotional condition. Maybe I'll don't give a big damn if he'll reject me. I just really want him to know what I feel for him. It's really hard suppressing my feelings for him. I just hope that the things I need for him to know what I feel for him will be brought to me. Maybe by that time, I’ll already have the strength to tell it to him. Maybe.