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Friday, February 18, 2011

A Lose-Lose Situation

My father and my brother had a big "war" yesterday. It's not a secret that I do have wrath in my heart when it comes to my father. But during that so called "war", I'm just there. No, not in the fight scene. I'm there away from them. I don't know what to do. I don't think I have the right to steal a scene there. After what happened to my father and me, that was just few days ago, I don't think I'm in the right position to stop the fury that was fast-forming there.

I really don't know what to do at that time. All of them was in the state of shock and don't-know-what-to-do condition. My mother was already crying. Some of my siblings were comforting her. So I just stayed upstairs, trying to hear their conversation. I was so shocked when my brother said the worst things I've heard from him to my father. Me, even though I'm having this bad feeling about my father, yes, I can take saying those kind of words to him but after a few minutes, I'll start to cry wondering why I'd said that to him. My consciense will attack me at some point after that. But him, maybe because of over anger, he lost his patience and said those kind of words to our father. He then go upstairs after that then hit soms parts of our wooden wall. I still don't know what to do at that time. So I just stayed calm and quiet. I didn't say any words because it might gave someone there a bad impression.  

I would not divulge the whole scenario for privacy purposes but I can say that we're on a lose-lose situation at that time. Never in my life I hoped for that to happen. I just hope that everyone in my family will have a better rapport after that incident. Maybe not now but I hope soon. Keep safe. Godbless.