I'm lurking at PEx when I stumbled upon a thread about bullying. I googled some articles about bullying and below were the things I've found.
http://illinoishomepage.net/fulltext/?nxd_id=310257
http://www.chron.com/life/mom-houston/article/Parents-Bullying-drove-Cy-Fair-8th-grader-to-1698827.php
http://www.upi.com/Top_News/US/2012/05/25/7-year-old-commits-suicide-over-bullying/UPI-28561337973787/
http://goodmenproject.com/good-feed-blog/another-teen-suicide-due-to-bullying/
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/reading-between-the-headlines/201206/another-suicide-due-bullying
I was so sad when I read these news because I can relate. I've always felt like I'm bullied since ages ago. Everytime I walk in our street, kids will yell at me saying "Gay! Gay!" as if I'm denying it; boys will start looking at each other and strike a smile on their faces as I'm a big disappointment to their specie and people would look at me in a humiliating way obviously referring for my existence in what they call "abnormal world".
I don't understand why they do that. I don't think it brings any good to them. I'm not sure if they get satisfaction from what they're doing. In case they are, I believe they're a having a very bad habit. Believe it or not, every night I'm having my time talking to God, asking for strength, I always come to a point that I would pray to Him to eradicate homosexuality in the world in the future generations. Why? I'm hoping for it because I'm aware that the road the homos were walking is a not so easy one. Don't get me wrong, I love my colleagues in sexuality, even the gays in the future. Lol. It's just that, I love them so much that I don't want them to experience the hardships taken by the non-heterosexuals.
I know I'm a weakling when it comes to bullying. You can see me emotionless when I'm embarrassed by other people but when the time I got home and I'm already hugging my pillow, silent cries will fill the room. I almost lost my confidence because of that. I came to a point that I'll pray to Him to already get me out of this cruel world but when I think of the people I'll leave, I'll change my mind and I'll just wish to him more and more strength to continue my battle in this planet. I never planned to have suicide because it's wrong. Taking your own life as if you really own it? I don't think it's a good idea.
Right now, I'm working hard for my family and for myself. For the bullies to know that God exists and play the game of life fairly. I'm still humbled even though I can already tell them face to face that the kid they bullied years ago is already having a great time of his life. The sad truth that they will remain bullies for the rest of their lives will be my sweet revenge for them. "Mean" by Taylor Swift will be my song for them. :-)
KSGB! (Short for Keep Safe God Bless.) Hahaha. :-)
